Do you try to give to people that don’t give back to you and then ignore the people that do want to share with you? yea… me too! It’s called codependency and it’s ok! just sayin… I notice I do this and I’m like “WHY!?” – but… I have gotten much much better since I’ve started “Going (giving) where it flows” -if you find yourself stuck… hear me saying: “Give where it flows baby” – people that want to regenerate/reciprocate and flow WITH you. The thing is…. when we make someone’s ability to reciprocate or receive from us mean something about us (I’m unlovable, I’m not good enough.. blah blah) that’s when we get hooked! And then we try to change them – but really we don’t want to change them, we just don’t want it to mean what we think it means about us… ūüôā So:

1. QTIP – Quit Taking It Personally , the person’s ability means nothing about you

2. Just feel your own feeling – remember just because someone abandons you doesn’t mean you have to abandon yourself. Someone may not be able to be as present with you as you would like, the moment you notice yourself feeling bad about it, just give yourself a big hug and affirm you are still there with YOU and then it’s easier to let go and accept what the other person is willing/able to receive.

3. Notice when you get attached to the outcome or feel resentful or angry – this means your cup is runnin’ low honey! Go fill up – laugh, dance, play banjo- whatever you need to do to fill your cup… (but not with addictions) -sometimes, it’s just … letting go of trying.. and- “Give where it flows”

4. Remember, it’s a GIFT when you ALLOW someone to GIVE to you
Then … RECEIVE… work in progress. Have a fantastic day =)



Superwoman complex

Articles cite¬†the reasons for women’s guilt as: “not fulfilling their roles and expectations to put others first”

In my own life, this is not what I found… You see, I am not a timid woman. I have no problem asking for what I need… on an emotional level. I always prided myself that I would speak up no matter what – but it becomes a problem when action¬†does not follow. Through learning to set boundaries I¬†respond proactively to my needs¬†before I get resentful or¬†upset. This has helped me A LOT. I also don’t spend as much time explaining the REASON for my needs or wants. A lot of times, because we don’t have a good enough reason to say ‘No’, we say yes. Women are quick to give where there is a need.

More than guilt, what I have found is that:

When I¬†have to ASK for what I want/need in materials I feel that I am actually causing my partner pain –¬†emotional and possibly even physical. My goal is to become a¬†woman and learn energy mastery on ALL levels.

Studies claim that women feel guilty over more immediate “smaller” issues in their lives because they feel in control of those areas and we feel guilty nearly 6 times more often than men because we take personal responsibility
But I think this issue of responsibility and “locus of¬† control” can be explored further.

It has been noted that it’s healthy for us to feel guilt sometimes. Guilt can show us where we have done wrong and can correct our behavior. Guilt indicates us where we are taking responsibility. When we have done wrong it’s appropriate to make an amend and “right a wrong.” But sometimes we take responsibility for how others feel when we have done nothing wrong.

This seems to be the missing piece of this discussion, it’s not just that women feel guilty when we fall short of our roles and expectations – but really because we feel RESPONSIBLE and that we, at the very least, have¬†influence over how other people feel.

I felt guilty when I went to a Christmas festival with a date and his siblings and the festival was boring and crowded. Ineedlessly took responsibility for how they felt and experienced the event РI felt myself shrink as somehow their experience of the event meant something about me.

How to Cope:

1. Identify Guilt (Affirm feelings)

2. Ask what I can do (learn from it)

3. Watch “I should have’ language. Watch conditioned responses/goals

Sometimes I feel that nothing I do can make up for it.

Schedule ‘Me Time’ – literally put it on your calendar is non-negotiable time. Susan Carrell give “Escape Tactics for Moms”


Here are more resources if you find yourself in a similar predicament.

Celebrating Men, Satisfying Women

Just before going to a 10-day Vipassana silent retreat I took the PAX seminar “Celebrating Men, Satisfying Women”…

The flavor of the course seemed like a sophisticated etiquette course… and the workshop leader seemed like an uptight sorority girl, lecturing us as we are little kids on her boundaries for an hour before the course began!b There is a huge difference between setting boundaries to control people vs. ¬†Despite these initial impressions I came to the workshop to learn how to be more empowered in my interactions with men. I wanted to stop self-abandoning and stop giving up my power with men through feeling guilty even though I did nothing wrong or feeling responsible for their experience.


It’s really valuable to give up this idea of men as “dysfunctional women” and just enjoy them for their own merits. To know how to ask for our needs to be met in a way that men understand, to respect, and honor men and to realize it doesn’t help them, us, or our relationships to make them feel inadequate because they have another way of listening and understanding.


1. Stone age view of men’s emotions with ideas that “the way men are” is they don’t:

– Trust their emotions as a source of information

– They believe their identities are their values, not their emotions

3. “Posts” or values protect men’s hearts and we attack their “posts” they feel attacked. Examples used in the class of men’s “posts” – football, video games,¬† and beer… WOW

4. Validates men, while invalidating women; women come to the course feeling disempowered around men and that makes it difficult to jump into appreciating men.

5. Many important topics/ questions not addressed.

– Values conflict with how men “are” – what if my values like open communication, sharing emotions, and connection conflict with this idea of how men “are” (which I don’t buy)

6. Men develop Crohn’s disease and other psycho-somatic diseases from repressed emotions. How can we just accept them as not communicating their emotions when potentially they could get sick from this!

There was not enough emphasis placed on Women’s Empowerment and it made it difficult for some of us to move wholeheartedly into the oath to give up “castrating men forever”

What I learned

I can’t believe the PAX course is the¬† MOST progressive course we have for women to understand men. I think it undermines men, our men are capable of much much more. I recently started listening to podcasts by Robert Ohotto, the guy is great and really highlights the problem, especially this podcast


“Sex, like all things, is righteous to the extent that heaven meets earth there…

Sex is not, in its essence, about the body at all. It is an opportunity for us to remove our emotional armor with someone who wants us to remove it and who wants to remove his or her own. Problems occur when we have sex with people who have no desire whatsoever for us to be so naked in their presence, who have nosense of the sacred responsibility it is to hold another person’s heart in their hands….

There’s a state of being that is raw and authentic and fiercely graceful, like a great ballerina dancing in her prime. Sex in that place is more than just sex. With every couple who make it past the sad disconnection of sex that’s just sex to the fire at our center, the world is brought closer to the end of its pain. How excruciating to have touched that place, and then to land unsuspectingly back in the world as we knew it; the cold, non-intimate, un-soft world of people who cannot find each other. That’s why we never should have sex casually. If you’re not with a person who’s an artist at love, the art of love is a dangerous game….
So be careful but be brave…”

~Marianne Williamson, “Illuminata